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Y/N POV

“I’m gonna head out.” I say to my friends. “Where?” John B asked, concerned. I shrugged, “I don’t know. Wherever I take myself.” I say. He chuckles a little and says, “Be safe okay? Come back here if you need anything.” I nodded, smiling slightly as I walked out. I started running down to the beach as soon as the door shut. The sun was about to set and it was always the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. When I got down there, the sun was almost about to set. I sat down right down by the water, taking off my shoes so I could feel the mixture of water and sand between my toes. I inhaled the smell of the salty ocean water. “Didn’t think I’d find you here.” I heard a familiar voice say. I tensed up but relaxed when I realized who it was. “Hey JJ.” I said in barely a whisper. My voice was normally that silent when I was watching the sunset. I felt him sit next to me. I still hated myself for not kissing him. You wanted to and you didn’t know why you couldn’t. Maybe it was because a part of you still loved Rafe or it was just because you were scared. “What are you doing here?” he asked me, almost as quiet as I had talked to him. “It may sound stupid but watching the sunset.” I said, embarrassed. JJ never seemed like the type of person who liked to sit around and watched the sunset. “Me too.” he said bluntly. I looked over at him. The way the sun hit his face highlighted his cheekbones. “It’s just an escape from the world.” JJ and I said in union. We made eye contact and our faces got closer together. “JJ…” I whispered when I noticed he was looking down at my lips. His eyes had a tint of pain when I said his name. He probably thought we were going to have a repeat of what happened a few days ago. “JJ, kiss me.” I say, my breath hitching as he turned around and put his soft lips onto mine. We stayed like that until finally pulling away. “I wish we could’ve done that sooner.” he says, smiling a little. I flinched at the memory. “About that, JJ, I’m so sorry. I don’t know what I was thinking. I think I was just scared. I don’t-” He cut me off by saying, “Y/N, it’s fine. I understand.” he says, smiling in a way I’d never seen before.

We sat there in silence for a while before he asked, “Be mine?” I looked over at him and smiled. I pretended to think for a few minutes before saying, “Yeah, yeah I will.” He smiled before kissing me once again. When we pulled away, I smiled before looking away, smiling. This was gonna be a good relationship. At least I thought so.

Five months later

“Y/N HE WAS OBVIOUSLY FLIRTING WITH YOU!” JJ yelled at me as we drove home from a party. “JJ, stop being stupid. No he wasn’t.” I said, trying my best not to yell. “I’M NOT THE STUPID ONE HERE!” he yelled. “EXCUSE ME?! UGH, SOMETIMES I WISH I NEVER EVEN KISSED YOU!” I yelled at him. He slammed on the brakes, causing you to move forward with the car. “WHAT?” he asked me. It took you a second before you realized what words had come out of your mouth. “JJ… I didn’t mean that…” I said, tearing up a little. “Y/N, just.. I don’t want to keep fighting.” he whispered. Before he could say anything I said, “Love isn’t supposed to hurt this much..” you whispered, breaking down. “I’m sorry.” he says, pulling me closer to him. “So am I.” you say crying even more.

You woke up the next morning to a bunch of cranky pogues. “We should’ve gone back to the Chateau.” you murmured. Your eyes were still closed, you were rubbing them when you heard laughs. “What the heck are you guys laughing about?” you asked, finally opening your eyes. Then, you remembered JJ. “Oh, haha, very funny.” you say sarcastically. You lightly pushed him off of you and shook him awake. “I’m up.” he said, sitting up. “I should probably go change. John b, can you drop me off at my house?” you ask him as you all make your way back to the van. “Sure,” he says, obviously still tired.

At your house, you change into some comfortable clothes,

you packed some clothes just because you knew you would rather stay at the chateau then your own home. You grabbed your skateboard and rode over to the Chateau. When you got there, you placed your skateboard inside the house and jumped on Kie who was sitting on the couch. “Is it okay if I stay here for a while?” you ask John B. “Yeah, you can stay as long as you want.” he said. You smiled at him and turned your focus back to Kiara. “I didn’t know you could skateboard.” JJ says. You and Kiara started to play fight. “Yeah, I learned in the 6th grade.” you said. “FINE! I GIVE UP!” she shouts as you throw your hands up in victory. “I can surf too.” you say, smiling. “I surf too.” he says. You nod. “Sooo, what do you guys want to do?” Sarah asks, trying to stop the awkwardness.

You gave Kie and Sarah a look. “Y/N, you are so mean.” Sarah says laughing. “I call JJ.” you yell, running over to the blonde haired boy that was now looking at you like you were psycho. You took the hairband off his wrist and put his hair up in one of those little man bun things. (hopefully you know what i mean) You go through your bookbag, and find a facemask, you open it and put it on JJ’s face. “I hate you.” he says. “No you don’t.” you say, giggling. You take a picture with him and post it on Instagram.

You, Sarah, and Kie walk out with the other boys and start bursting out laughing. Then, Sarah and Kie notice the tiny bun you put in JJ’s hair and start laughing even harder. “Love how they just use us for their entertainment.” Pope says rolling his eyes.

@Birdgirl22 this lowkey made me laugh ngl

y/n pov

It was 12 pm when JJ finally got out of bed. He sat down next to John B just before JB’s wonderful idea popped into his head. “Come on, we’re having a pogue day.” he said, dragging JJ up. “A what?” I asked him. “A pogue day. A day where we spend the day together. Doing whatever we want.” he says. “When did that become a thing?” JJ asks. “Since now,” he says. We all sighed and made your way to the van. We all knew better than to argue with John B when he had his mind set to something.

In the van, I sat next to JJ and Kiara. Pope sat on the other side of JJ. And Sarah sat in the front next to John B. I laid my head in Kiara’s lap, and my feet in JJ’s. “Seriously?” he asked, while Kiara started playing with my hair. “Yup.” I say smiling. He chuckled and jokingly rolled his eyes. “You're such an idiot.” he says laughing. I pretended to be sad, making the pouty face, and burying my face into Kiara’s stomach. “I’m being bullied.” I said, pretending to cry. “JJ, stop bullying my child.” she says, slapping JJ. I burst out laughing when her hand made contact with his face. “I’M THE BULLY?” he shouts, making Kiara and me laugh even louder.

We went to a clothes store first. JJ, John B, and Pope were acting like babies the whole time, saying they didn’t want to be there. While Kiara, Sarah, and I were trying on so many clothes that there was almost nothing else left to try on. “Can we pleaseeee go now?” JJ asked, sounding like a little kid. “Fine.” I said. When we got back into the car, an idea popped into my head. “JOHN B!” I yelled. “Y/N!” he yelled back at me. “I have an idea!” i said, a little softer. “What?” he asked me. “Starting now, why don’t we all choose a place to go?” I said. He looked back at me. “That’s actually a good idea. Let’s do it. Sarah can go first.” he said. He switched places with Sarah and she started driving with an evil look on her face. “We’re probably going to die.” I said, quietly to Kiara. She laughed and said, “Knowing her, yeah.”

Sarah ended up taking you guys to an ice cream shop. You all got ice cream and sat down and talked about nothing in particular. Your mind kept wandering to JJ. So did your eyes. It gave you a weird feeling whenever you looked at him. It was almost indescribable how someone can make you feel this way. You had never felt that way before.

After everyone else went, it was finally our turn. You couldn’t think of anywhere to go. But then you had an idea. You got behind the wheel and drove them to a place you and Sarah used to go when you were hanging out. “Wait, are you going where I think you’re going?” Sarah asked. You smirked. “Maybe.” you say. Nothing else was said until you parked in a hotel parking lot. You made your way to the back of the hotel to a ladder. You started climbing up it. “Just follow me. Don’t ask questions.” you say.

This is the spot.

“It’s beautiful.” Kiara says. “Y/N choose the best spot.” Sarah says. John B and Pope start asking you questions about how you made the secret spot and how long it had been there. JJ, however, remained quiet. After a few hours, the other pogues had fallen asleep except for you. JJ was next to you. You could hear his soft snores as he slept. You looked up at the city, hoping it would be a distraction from JJ. You felt arms wrap sound your waist. You looked down and saw JJ’s arms around you and his head on your stomach. “This is nice.” he said, quietly. You smiled to yourself. Maybe life wasn’t awful after all.

@Birdgirl22 i wrote this part during my math class lol

The next morning, you woke up on the couch. You had barely gotten any sleep. You wished you had kissed JJ when you had the chance. You really wanted to kiss him and you don’t know why you held back. I mean, he did do nothing but criticize you when you first met. But, he also saved you from Rafe, comforted you when you were close to a panic attack during the thunderstorm, and talked to you about your home situation. All of those things made up for the insults he was constantly throwing at you. And now, it was probably never going to be like that again.

You sat on the couch for what seemed like forever, thinking about him. What caused you to push him away? I mean, it’s always been a toxic trait of yours, pushing people when they get close to you but you didn’t want to push JJ away. You wanted him and you knew that. Eventually, there was a knock on the door. You walked over to it and opened it. Kiara walked in, smiling. That smile soon turned into a frown, “What’s wrong with you? You look horrible.” she says. You rolled your eyes and responded, “That just makes me feel loads better Kiara, thanks.” She follows you into the kitchen, “You know I didn’t mean it that way, you're probably one of the most beautiful girls in the Outer Banks but you look like you're going through a breakup. And I mean, you obviously are over Rafe.” she tells you. “I’m not pretty Kiara and no, I’m not going through a breakup but it sure feels like it.” you say, getting out a bowl to pour cereal in.

She sits down on the counter. “Do you want to talk about it?” she asks. Not stopping what you were doing, you told her about the situation with JJ and how it was messing with your mind and you don’t even know why. “You’ve fallen hard.” she says. You look up at her. “I mean, I don’t even know.” you say. “Hey, today is probably going to be awkward but it’s probably just best not to bring it up and if he tries to, don’t talk about it.” she says with a look of kindness on her face. “Thanks Kie.” you say, pulling her into a hug, which she returns.

It wasn’t long before the other Pogues made their way into the kitchen. JJ was still in bed though. You couldn’t stop thinking about him. It was killing you. “Y/N, can you go check on JJ?” John B asked you. Kiara looked over at you before you nodded. You walked down the hall to the room JJ normally stays in. You knock on the door. No response. You walk in and see him sprawled out on the bed. His hair was a mess, he looked like he had just fallen asleep and you felt bad about waking him up. You noticed new scars and bruises on his face. Could they be from his Dad? Or where they from Rafe? You didn’t know but you grabbed a First Aid Kit from the bathroom and sat down on his bed. You opened the kit and started to clean up his face. “Didn’t know you cared about me this much.” he said, eyes still closed. “I do care about you JJ. Don’t be stupid.” you say softly.

He sat up but you pushed him back down. “I’m not done, be still.” you say. “Why would I listen to you?” he said sitting up again. You push him back down. “Don’t move and this will be over with soon.” you say, a little bit more aggressive. “Fine.” he mumbled. You could see him flinch under your touch. “I’m not going to hurt you.” you say. “I know.” he tells you. He closes his eyes, trying to relax. You really wanted to kiss him. “I’m going to go get some ice, I’ll be right back, don’t move.” you say to him. He grunts in agreement and you walk down the hall. “He’s tired. I think his Dad might have hit him again, but he has new cuts and bruises on his face, I’m just patching him up.” you say when you are asked about the blondie by the other pogues. You grab a bag of ice and wrap it in a paper towel, and walk back into his room.

He still is in the bed. His eyes are closed and you can’t tell if he’s asleep or not. You place the ice bag where his small black eye was. He grunted and mumbled, “I’m awake. I’ll hold it.” His voice when he was tired was probably one of the hottest things you’ve ever heard. “10 to 20 minutes. Don’t press it on your eye.” you say to him. You apply some rubbing alcohol on his other cuts. His eyes were still closed, and he looked really good. You finished patching him up after 30 minutes. You walked to the door, before you could leave, you stopped in your tracks before turning around to look at the boy who was in the bed. You walked toward him, you leaned down and pressed a small kiss to his forehead. “I’m sorry.” you whispered. And with that, you walked out of his room, to join the other pogues.

@Birdgirl22 i lowkey hate this.

After the whole incident with Rafe, you and the other pogues went back to the Chateau. You sat on the couch, cold and tired. It had started raining. “Here.” JJ said, throwing you one of John B’s sweatshirts which you quickly put on. You flinched as the lightning struck. You had always been scared of thunderstorms and the circumstances tonight weren’t helping at all. JJ, who was sitting next to you, noticed. “Are you okay?” he asked you. You looked at him. “Yeah. I’m fine.” you stutter. He can tell by the look in your eyes that you weren’t. You were scared and cold. You really just wanted someone to hug you.

The other pogues were fast asleep in the bedrooms. You couldn’t blame them. It was late and everyone was tired, including you. There was a big sound of thunder, and the lightning flashed. You started breathing really heavy and felt tears rolling down your face. JJ notices. “Hey, hey, hey. You're okay. It’s just a little storm.” he said pulling you closer to him. He started rubbing your head. Your breathing started to slow down. “You're okay. I got you.” he said softly as you drifted off to sleep.

You wake up the next morning, you hear silent laughs and movements. “Oh shut up.” you heard JJ say. You sigh and open your eyes to the other pogues laughing their butts off. “Be quiet or I’ll literally tell Sarah why you started talking to her in the first place.” you said directly to John b. His eyes widen as he says, “Everyone shut up now.” You chuckle at his reaction. You stand up and walk into the kitchen. Kiara comes in after you. “So, you and JJ?” she asks jokingly. “OH MY GOSH, NO!” you groan, it just makes her laugh even harder.

JJ walks in and sits on the counter. After a few minutes of silence, he finally asks, “So what was last night about?” You turn around and look at him. “I’m sorry, I’ve always been afraid of thunderstorms. Ever since I was little.” you say apologetically. “It’s not your fault but I think I know why.” he says. You freeze. “What do you mean?” you ask. He looks at the ground. “I used to be pretty scared when there was thunder and lightning because it reminded me of when my Dad hit me.” he said silently. You looked away. “My Mom hits me. That’s why I’m so scared of loud noises like that.” you say to him. “I’m sorry. I know what it’s like.” he said. “Yeah, but at least you have somewhere to go. I only had Rafe. I would sleep on his couch or have a sleepover with Sarah. I had nowhere else to go.” you admit. “I’m sorry.” he says. You nod. “It’s nothing I haven’t dealt with before.” you say before going to sit down next to Kiara on the couch and watch tv.

That night, you stay over at John B’s. You were just scrolling through Instagram when JJ came and sat down next to you. “Well hello there.” you said when he put his feet on your lap. He smiles like an idiot. You watched tv together for a while until JJ started talking, “When did it start?” he asked. You knew that he was talking about your mom. “Basically my whole life.” you said before pausing. “My Dad cheated so she blamed it on me. She turned into an alcoholic and started hitting me.” you say again. “ I really do understand.” he says. You look up at him. “I kn-” you begin to say before you realize how close you are together. He had really pretty eyes. They were gorgeous actually. His eyes made their way down to your lips while your eyes followed his. You could feel your heart pounding and the butterflies in your stomach. You could see him moving forward but you panicked and turned away. You could tell he was hurt when you looked back at him but you just couldn’t kiss him, no matter how bad you wanted to. “I’m sor-” he cut you off by saying, “It’s fine. I get it.” Then he stood up and walked back to a room and closed the door. Leaving you there, with one single tear rolling down your cheek.

@Birdgirl22 oh snap

You woke up on Rafe’s couch. You sat up, and saw Sarah sitting on the couch next to you. “So you went back to him.” she said, not looking up at you from her phone. “No. We’re just friends.” you said, rolling your eyes at the girl. “You don’t get it do you? Rafe wants you back, and if you haven’t noticed, he has a way of getting what he wants.” she says, looking straight into your eyes. “Okay, I’ll be careful.” you say, not paying much mind to her warning. You stood up after a few hours, gathered your belongings, and made your way back to your house. Your mom would be asleep so you would have to be quiet.

At your house, you were going to a party tonight with the kooks. You changed and waited foe topper, rafe, and kelce to come pick you up. When they arrive, you sit in the back next to rafe. As soon as you sit down next to him, he puts his arm around you. It made you remember when you first started dating him, before it became toxic.

You arrived at the party. As soon as you got out of topper’s car, you could feel the dirty looks of the pogues. You tried your best to ignore it but you couldn’t help it. You had some beers and danced with rafe. Eventually you went down to the dock to get away from all the sweaty people. You could feel someone sit next to you. You looked beside you and saw rafe. You smiled. To your surprise, he grabbed you and started kissing you. You missed him but you couldn’t stop thinking about how he had hurt you so many times. You pulled away. “I’m sorry I- I can’t.” you stuttered. “Why, did you catch feelings for a pogue?” he asked, his voice was laced with hatred. “What? No.” you said calmly. He roughly grabbed your arm and pushed you to the ground. “I’m going to make you want me back.” he said harshly. He pinned you down. You closed your eyes and prepared yourself for the pain you were about to feel. But, it never came..

You heard shouts, the sound of footsteps, and the sound of skin on skin contact. You sat up and saw JJ on top of Rafe, throwing punches left and right. “Y/N! ARE YOU OKAY?” you heard Kiara asks. You nodded as you felt tears roll down your cheeks. “Yeah, I’m fine.” You watched as John B and Pope pulled JJ off of Rafe. “Don’t ever touch her like that again!” he yelled at Rafe. Why did he care so much? He always acted like he hated me. You were confused but shook it off. Maybe he wasn’t so bad after all?

After you and kie had changed clothes at her house, you made your way back to the Chateau. When you got there, JJ was making a sandwich with mold on it. “That bread had mold on it three days ago.” pope said to him. “Mold is good for you. It’s like a natural organism.” Jj responded. “Your so stupid.” you said to him. “Oh well I’m sorry that you have enough money to afford a nice house and to go to a nice school.” he snapped. “No, I don’t JJ. I may have dated a kook but I live in the cut. I barely have enough money to pay for my house let alone school.” you responded trying no to yell at him. “Maybe you shouldn’t be so stuck up all the time then!” he had started raising his voice. “I’M STUCK UP? YOU’VE BEEN A JERK TO ME WHEN I HAVE DONE NOTHING TO YOU! I KNOW YOU HATE RAFE AND I’M SORRY ABOUT THAT BUT I’M NOT HIM!” you were yelling. You hated yelling.

“Guys stop.” John b said finally butting in.

You rolled your eyes and sat down on the couch, cursing under your breath while scrolling through your phone.

“You know what JB, maybe we should let her yell, it’ll help her cope with the breakup, you know.” JJ said. I bolted up. “WELL AT LEAST I KNOW HOW TO COMMIT TO SOMEONE!” I yelled at him. “WELL HE OBVIOUSLY COULDN’T COMMIT TO YOU!” he yelled back. “WOW, YOUR ONE TO TALK.” I responded. We were in each other’s faces. I finally just scoffed. “You know what, for once, I’ll do what you want. I’ll leave.” you said. You turned around and started walking out. You could hear the other pogues yelling at him for making you leave. You knew about his bad homelife but he didn’t know about yours. You phone buzzed.

Rafe: Hey.. Can you come over.

You hesitated for a second but typed back saying you’d be there ASAP.

At the Cameron’s house

You knocked on the front door. Rafe opened it. “Hey.” he said. You smiled a bit. To your shock, he wrapped his arms around your waist and pulled you into a hug. After the shock had died down, you wrapped your arms around him. You could hear him start to cry which only made you pull him closer to you. After you finally pull back, he looks at you. “I’m sorry.” he muttered. “It’s okay. But you know I can’t get back with you. It’ll take time.” you respond. He nods and looks at the ground. “I know. You just deserve to hang out with someone better than the pogues.” he says. “Rafe, I’m a pogue. Just, watch what you say.” you mutter. He nods. He moves and lets you into the house, where you just sat on the couch and watched tv.